What do you usually do, when you should be doing something else?

I was ‘already’ well in my twenties and had tried to study English and Psychology, but neither could keep me interested long enough. Always when I had to study for an exam, I could be found in the darkroom developing photos or out in the park shooting pictures.

I could be found in the darkroom developing photos or out in the park shooting pictures.

It took me a while to surrender to this urge and entered art school at 25. A whole new world opened up to me, which was actually an old world I remembered from being very small. To be allowed to create, to have ideas appear and to develop them, and to around so many other artists, made me happy. I didn’t see how good my work really was until years later, so I was often insecure and nervous. It was hard at times, but I finally came home. I didn’t graduate with photography though, but with 16mm film. It was when I first discovered that the medium doesn’t really matter as long as I can express myself.

It was actually an old world I remembered from being very small.

May I ask you, what do you usually do, when you should be doing something else?

And you? Where does your mind wander off to? What do you actually long for when procrastinating? What makes you come alive? What keeps you from doing it? What could help you in this process? Please share below.

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  1. I longed to get outside. As a child in the classroom, I remember always looking out the window at the birds, wanting to go where they were. Now that I live in the countryside, it’s mostly the same, but with two big differences: I’m grown up and self-employed. I can actually free-range when I want to!
    And yesterday I found myself longing to be back in the theatre. I used to be a technician and there’s something magical about entering an empty black box in the morning and turning it into a show with actors, lights and sounds. So that certainly is worth exploring!

    • That really sounds like an exciting path to explore. You might be combining it all one day. What is ‘out there’, where the birds are, that attracts you so much? What happens to you when you do indeed range freely?

  2. Flow. Flow happens. I forget time and find myself belonging to the world. Ideas pop into my head. I can see things in a larger perspective. I get to daydream while weeding the vegetable plot. So I’m making myself useful while still being able to wander off in my and explore ideas. Leading to new insights that are always welcome. So I suppose I grow outside with the sun shining on my head!

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